hihihi!!!!!!
it been sooooooooo long since i last blogged, well my blog is really death and i realised tt almost allof the link i have ( my escape way out list) are all death link. It is just so hard to keep upwith blogging when life is so boring and plus all busy school work every body has.
hais~~~~
Anyway this holis is just so boring should i go find a job?
this is the 2nd week of holis and i cannot stand slacking anymore, it just feels so lonely!!!!!
Ever since this sem have started so many things have change i don't really know what to believe..but i really have to thank god for because of this change i have clearly waken up and start looking for what i have missed out. i truly feel so sry to all those that i have been putting aside for the last sem but thankfully all is not lost. And also thanks to all this changes i have clear see things and how people truly are and take back all my trust i have given them..i won't fight i won't do anything to change the way things are cause i think is a waste of my time for these people. so now i shall set my goal before 2011 comes next week.
- Get a life! change the way my life is now.
- Hold on to those true to me
- Let go of all faker
- Try to buck up my grade
- Finish poly by 2012 march
well afternoon i called wanzi wanted to hand out but she had to meet her "somebody" you get what i mean. i was disturbing her, well i really miss her and the rest a lot and she was telling my that i was stupid for wasting my time on korean idol stuff. Actully i kind of agree now that i think about it but pitty me la my life is so freakying boring ever since i made this stupid desicion to come to this stupid course in stupid NYP! going into liking DBSK is just so that i can get my mind off thinking that my life suck and i'm a totally loser now.
hais...there are like a million work i need to do and i totally hate my life now. i hate everything i really wish i can turn back the clock to like a year ago. i feel so lost and drifted apart from everything. seriously i don't really care about the things going now in my life. Everything is jus so boring and this holiday i have been busy working i haven been updating on what's gg on in the cyber world well not that i like cyber world it's equally boring too but i realize i miss out a lot on wanzi, shanny, maisy, kat and kaiwei's life and they seem to have pretty emo tweets and facebook share which makes me wanna follow upmore on them but i not dare call them well except for wanzi, the rest i jus really donno what to say but i care about them hais...life is just a bitch i really wish i can faster get out of nyp and find a direction in life by then and i really hope that i will never lost wanzi, shanny, maisy, kat and kaiwei even in life.
Recently been watching The Bigbang theory and feel even them nerds in the show has more life then i do. Every single day all i do is wake up early morning go to school face a million homework, lab reports and projects then EXAMS! and go home do my work and study and i don't freakying understand what the hell i'm doing and sat i have to go work and it so boring i have alr taken leave at least untill week 9 after the exams but staying at home also make me feel so workup i got nth better to do other then clear all the datelines and then monday is here soon enough again and this is the end of my lousy life.
I just wanna do a post before i carry on with my
API report. I really feel so drain out of energy from every single cell in my body. This is just the 2
nd week of sch reopening but
i'm already worry about all the unfinished piled up sch work, okay and let me repeat "P.I.L.E.D.-U.P."!!!
i have like 4 report to rush and
i'm really worried about all the projects
i'm having this
sem.
Please any god or in fact all gods of all religions please just let this year and the
nxt pass over really fast. where 1hour = 60 sec!!! please please pretty please. Cause this
sem sch,
Argh!!
nvrm i don't wanna talk about it.
"Sign" i really don't understand why living in Singapore is so exhausting. Well i think i kind of know the answer, it is all because we Singaporean are all brought up will the the thinking of " it's every man for themselves" call us selfish but it is a fact and i accept it. Even if your parents never teach you this teacher in school does and even if teacher in school don't people of all walks in life that are you "friends" & "classmate" will some how force you to take that ideal up. well nobody wants to suffer, nobody wants to be in the losing end nobody will pity you and help you this is just the way the world goes round at least this is what i have learn as i grow older and as time pass you will be like them. You do have to self protect yourself right? why do you have to do all the dirty job yourself for free since nobody pity you, you will also not pity others. i guess it's not wrong to live with "me,myself and i" first! as a Singaporean.
However, i just so tired of this life where everyday you have to fight for your rights, to protect yourself , to always be high in defences, and endure all the things you hate to do but have no choice to swallow it into your stomach! So many thing that are unpleasant and i don't wanna talk about it and i think it's pointless to talk about it as saying it out won't change a single shit. Or maybe this is the live of a city dweller, oh how i wish i was a farmer, i would just plant my veggie, use my com and live a happy and simple live, where everybody is just so real, no fake faces to see, no rules to follow, no school to go to, no group project to rush, no datelines,no exams. "Sigh" but nobody in this world can choose their parents and their life everything is all
pre set for us..oh well i think i better go start doing my
API report...
my sad life T_T
hohoho!!!!
Finally exam's are all over, but my heart is still not totally settle yet...
I'm so god damn scare of my CMI result i really hope i can make it through i don't want to be separated from my 5 beautiful ladies...
Anyway after our last paper we went to celebrated in the LIBRARY! believe or not..hahaha! but still i was very happy we had fun.. We went to Cathay,bought popcorn and coke,queue up for tickets but seats were all out...IN the END with no choice and no where to go we went to the library...
But no worries i wanna go to downtown east museums and we have yet to plan ZIJUN's 18 birthday...
Anyway i just got back from thailand ytd was so super tired today, spent the whole day slacking..and sort out the stuff i bought..hohoho wait for my present guys!! ^^
GD NIGHT! 
